Photo #219
I got a big hit of everything today. I made the decision to pack up and head home today instead of tomorrow. I am full blown sick from all the celebrating and don't have much time at home before the move so I came back a day early. On the three hour ride home by myself everything had a chance to settle and come into focus. That was the last time I will make the drive back from Ithaca and the last time I will be in Ithaca. I'm really bad with goodbyes. I take for granted the time I spend with my friends and the special people in my life. I like to keep it light and upbeat. Rather than a good bye just a see you soon. But then it really sets in that this isn't just another summer and we aren't all going back in the fall. This is real life and the directions we are going in are not going to coincide. It's really hard to grasp and a get a handle. I'm so excited and so proud for everyone close to me in my life yet I want to be selfish, like I tend to be, and keep us all together in a perfect little Ithaca snowglobe. The one thing that keeps me hopeful is that our connections and friendship are going to make it through all this. And the two beautiful ladies in this photos are two of them that will be in my life from now til forever. We lived, loved, and laughed inside this little yellow house for our entire senior year and I would have never wanted it any other way. I do have my lighthearted wishful thinking syndrome that saying goodbye to my roomies was just a see you later when in actuality we will be in three different states on all parts of the continent. But what we've built, along the other very special people at IC, in our little yellow house will stand the test of time and distance. And that I have full confidence in.
Xx
-E
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