Photo #290
After living here for three months, and sitting at the DMV for 3.5 hours today, I have relinquished my NY state license and am an official resident of Tennessee. Today's photo has been cropped and edited to protect the information of the innocent, but this is the new license and identification. It was all a mix of excitement and sadness at the same time, well and some serious impatience. But this real and this is legit. I am here and here to stay. I made the biggest step and move of my life to date out on my own and the next chapter is beginning to settle and carve it's way into my story. Sometimes I do get this overwhelming feeling of wanting to be back in upstate NY living out the summer, wild and free. But there's that part of me that knows all the things I want it to be and all the people I'd want it to include wouldn't be there or be quite right. I made this move for me, to learn and to grow. And I can be just as wild and free on my own than I would be if I didn't take this chance, maybe even more so because I did. I always tell people I moved down here because there was nothing keeping me in NY, but truth be told and realistically, there will always be things keeping you tied to where you grew up. Those things are what gave the support and courage you needed to be set free to where you are now. But there are also things that keep you from moving on and missing the beauty of the new adventure. And those are the things that need to be let go of and relinquished. So maybe now that this is all settling in and I am aware that I am here and I have arrived to this current state, it is symbolic I had to give up my NY license and gain my TN identity to hold on to the feelings that keep me motivated and moving through this new chapter, and set free those few other things that hinder this incredible process and adventure. I'm a New Yorker at heart with a southern soul.
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