
July 26th, 2011
Photo #283
Yes I forgot to blog yesterday. I have no excuse for you. It slipped through the cracks. My days have been pretty jam packed lately with a lot going on. One thing I've decided to do is commit and focus on my fitness and getting back into shape. So six days a week and I am doing bootcamp and working with my trainer. I have to strategize my entire life I will need for the day because once I leave the house at 6:40am I don't return until at least 7:30pm. But it's worth it and keeps my mind somewhat off all the stress happening. This week is pretty crazy. Hence why I'm sitting at Starbucks enjoying my iced green tea during the only down time I'll have today thinking about yesterday and everything else. I'm making some big transitions this week knowing it will be for the better. Yet it's still difficult to make some leaps when the place to land isn't always visible. I moved down here with the intention to chase after my dreams, grab them and make them my new reality. And as someone who never quits anything in her life and an absolute perfectionist learning to garner more patience, the past two months have been pretty hard to navigate. Especially being out of college, officially on my own, and having the highest standards set to myself, not doing it all immediately is a little more than frustrating. But looking at the big picture, as we all tend to forget to do sometimes, this entire thing is teaching me something. Clearly teaching me to be patient, that there is something bigger and better out there that will come along when all is right, and most importantly to focus on the here and now. I am doing everything in my power to make the right connections and do the right things to get to where I want and need to be, but it's also about the journey that gets you there. I can't really expect to land my dream job right away as much as I want to, and I can't expect the first things I jump into to be the right fit. And you know what, it's ok to try new things and deviate away from the path that everyone thinks you need to be on. As I write this all in my own words, it's a little easier said than done, but I'm learning to take it all in day by day and go with the dang flow. I am the master of my own destiny but I need to ride the endless waves of transformation as they enter my life because in the end that's what make you the best person for that ultimate destiny. And to think, this all hit me at Starbucks..
Xx
-E